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“I have no tolerance for nonsense, getaway from me.”


Woke up to my parents arguing again.

I hate when people argue.

It scares me.

Only because I grew up listening

To it so much.

Wish they weren’t tho.

It gets annoying sometimes.

Guess that’s what you get

When your family is dysfunctional

As you are.
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So they offered me to take part in govern school.

Um, I don’t think I’m fit for that.

Example A would be that just ‘cause my

gpa says 4.1 doesn’t mean I’m smart.

I simply pay attention like some do too.

In reality I’m the dumbest bitch you’ll ever

meet. If I attended Govern school, I’d look

Like an absolute dumb ass then.

Like no way am I gonna look more stupid

Than I already am.

Hell no.

Sorry school that offered me this great

Opportunity. But It’s a no from me. I’m not

What you’re looking for. There must of

Actually been a mistake.

Yeah.

They probably sent it to the wrong house.

There’s kids who have 4.5’s at my school,

Do extra shit and after school shit.

Ask them.

You seriously don’t need my presence at

Such a prestigious school.

I’d set a bad example.

If you’re reading this, I apologize.

It’s not that I don’t wanna,

It’s that I’m seriously below average.

See ya fellow intellectuals.
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Who’s dumb?

This KidD! :D

Seriously wtf why can’t I do

Anything correctly.

I really hate school now.
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(Update this is when I thought my mom stole my earbuds.. she didn’t they were in my bookbag. I’m dumb and wow).

So apparently my family seems to have misplaced my shit once again but would not fess up to it,

rather wanna ruin my life etc etc.

they know how much music means to me yet don’t give any fucks

and wannna make my life as misarble as possible.
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So like... instagram is doing exactly as Tumblr did with the whole deleting accounts shit so it appears a lot of people will be migrating over to older/newer platforms that are either underrated or overrated. Either way, we’re fuckin’ screwed. Soon the emo’s will find out and flutter with joy before blasting their mcr tunes and clapping their hands in celebration that hinstory has finally repeated itself. Meaning they’re allowed to rise from hibernation and start again. Frick my dude (no this doesn’t apply to all emo’s broooo..) seriously I’m scared. Hopefully there’s something good of which comes from 2019 aka 200ninescene. OoOf. R.I.P Insta and Tumblr. (Side note: currently playing sims 2 lmaooo, not checking for any grammatical errors I’m too lazy so sorry ‘bout it).
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In percussion the other day

I watched two boys play a song by Queen

And The Beatles.

Fascinated I certainly was.

However, frozen. Stuck.

I didn’t move. Not one inch.

Simply gawked away and likely scared

The literal shit out of them.

Hopefully I hadn’t. Let’s just hope.

Later tho I mentioned my passion for music.

Drums somehow slipped up and the sub for

My band teacher Mr. Miller that day

Requested a blonde haired fellow

Yeah one of the two from earlier.

To aid me with his assistance,

Showing me the ways of playing drums.

I learned... ? No not necessarily.

Just fuckin’ jammed too hard and

Got disapproving glances.

Don’t blame them though.

I’m pretty bad at everything I do.

It’s a side effect of my ugliness.

Jk!

Not really...


See ya.
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soft silk, holds me tight.

As I toss and turn at night.

Wake up in a cold sweat,

worries forgotten thanks to the cloth like exterior,

made to protect.

Monster nor demon can come close when held near,

that’s why I find such material so dear.

Memories plus safety wonderfully sweet.

“Mother tuck me in, all nice and neat,”

simple request, tired mother was,

but a mother does what a mother must.

I love you...

12/31/2018
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I met this cute guy at the mall yesterday,

working the coffee stand.

That kinda reminded me of the dude

from Dream A Little Dream.

He laughed at my awkwardness

and had the cutest smile ever.

I wish to meet him again one day.